Terror dreams, decorations, music, confusions

It was a different weekend. I need to regroup and assign priorities to all pending tasks. I spent some time with friends, watching Senthil-Goundamani comedy clips, computer games, music. The Saturday morning started in a different tone. I got a strange dream. In one of the dreams, I was flying to Dubai from Mumbai. It was an enjoyable dream. The reason for this dream could be the fact that I had a talk with my relatives in Oman over the phone, the previous day afternoon. This is okay, but the next dream was depressive.

I was dressed up in military uniform and I had a shoulder mounted Stinger missile. I was standing near Adyar Bus Stand. I shot down a passenger plane mistaking it for a fighter plane. I was later arrested and suspended. What's the reason for this dream? Is it because that I played Soldier of Fortune the day earlier? I was also near APS Plaza interacting with old friends. Could that be a possible reason?

Then after sometime, I went to my dear 44 year old Venkat's home. My friend Dilip also accompanied me. The discussions were focussed on India, Railways, Heritage, Culture, customised T-shirts and mug. The world is changing fast, signs of India are vanishing. That's what I felt while talking to him. We left his home only at 8PM after talking with him for 3 hours. I went to Giri Traders and examined some items related to Vishnu. I also purchased a gift item for my good friend who was getting married. I also bought some exciting divine stickers to have them stuck in my house.

The next day morning, I got up late. I was sticking all the divine slogans and photos at "strategic" points(military language) in my house. People might find it amusing. In one of the blogs, I write about USSR and soon talk of India and then talk of Hinduism and later about Christianity. Promoting socialism, I also find time to live as an orthodox brahmin. I was slightly modern in the past, but I don't want to be modern anymore. I would rather stick to my destiny. I am happy with my country's culture. I have just realised the value of it a few years ago.

I am content with what I have got, I would live my rest of life in this country. I have seen only 5 states in my country and only a few important places. I am content with that. I could predict onething. The future is not going to be easy. Tougher moments are yet to come! But I believe with divine intervention, I would get through it. And there would be a bunch of people who would consider me as an outcast if I don't get promotions soon. There would be some people who would look down at me if I hadn't visited any foreign country. And the funny part is that, there would be some funny depressive moments. I am sure any girl who has got any intention of marrying me would be afraid. They would give it a second thought. I am sure their parents would look for a boy having an income of 10lac per annum, having at least one imported car or even more than that. I also knew that if I am going to marry, I might also end up in divorce. I am not afraid of anything, but I want only one partner in my life. On the whole, I am amused at my own Brahmin culture.

Being the creator of Vedas, sastras my ancestors led the way leading a life with an example, sadly, the present day world culture has influenced my own people so much that they have failed to realize what's right and what's wrong. Too much of importance is given to materialistic values which is not permanent. I am very amused seeing and observing the present day world.

Generally, I move actively with everyone. I have got good contacts and I want to be good. But people just fail to use it properly. That's one of the primary reason why I withdraw from even close friends sometimes. Sudden change of fortunes, too much of money would haunt anyone and make them feel superior to me. There were lots of thoughts runing in my mind, so without any hesitation I have put them all. Amidst all such things in life, every day my Lord Vishnu smiles at me from the photo, Mother Teresa smiles at me with warmth with her rosary beads and during the night the stars and the crescent-shaped moon greets me. It's destiny why we are all here and we are here for a purpose. I accept what my Lord has given to me.

Thinking of playing Soldier of Fortune again later today evening. And perhaps, if I could get time, I should try some Pizza's in the evening.

-Krishna Kumar.S