Saturday, November 12, 2011

THAT was not expected

It's been a while since I blogged. This time I am not gonna talk about my feelings or travels. Neither I am going to preach any of my ideologies. I personally believe that if I make some feelings public, it would help me to grow and to avoid the same again. This could be surprising for few readers as I rarely share critical things to the outside world. For the past few months, I have exhibited some behaviour that wasn't typically expected from me.

1. I am an quite-active member of major public forums in Facebook and also in several community forums. Though I am young, I am respected very much as a senior person. I have earned this respect by my behaviour and code of conduct. Uncharacteristic of mine, I exhibited my anger on a junior because what he spoke was bullshit, blasphemic and total crap. I could have avoided this, but this happenned.

2. Work has taken considerable toll on me. As a result, I became a bit mechanical and my brain refuses to think about anything else in other aspects of life. Just like how Germans fought Russians on a front and Americans on the other during World War-2, I have been trying to outdo myself in career and all efforts were directed there. This resulted in a bit of loss of health. This frustrated me a bit. There wasn't any recognition, but I knew I was growing. But all frustrations tolled up and took the best of me one day when I yelled at my parents who were staying with me during a visit. This wasn't expected.

3. After handling situations well, still I couldn't achieve much because I wasn't aggressive when I was expected to be so and patient when I needed to be patient.

These mistakes need to be corrected by me.

Next time when I worry about something, I should think, "Is it really gonna impact me after 5 years?" ... If YES, then worth worrying..

Most of the times NOT reacting to a circumstances is always better.

-Krishna Kumar.S